Monday, October 25, 2010

So it's October

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So here we are already into October 2010.


Some days it feels like yesterday. Some days is feels like it's happening now
and then some days, I forget- pick up the phone call her and this recording tells me the number is incorrect.... I guess Nextel decided not to use that number any more.

Sorry I haven't updated this blog since Easter but so much other in my crazy world has happened and so little relating to this has been going on. I have hesitated to blog about all the craziness in my little world.

I did blog a bit on Butterflies in the dark... had too.

I'm just so tired, I have given so much thought and work into the Network, but i really just don't know what I am doing with it. It has so many features and this and that- Hell, never claimed to know anything about running a network. It was fine as long and they were doing most of the work- Now I need some help or away it has to go. I simply can't pay for something that I'm not utilizing nor is getting me much traffic to the Network. It's a waste of what little money I have. Social Security Disability doesn't give you much to live on so thankfully I have some who loves me that provides me with a place to stay.

Anyway, I had pretty much decided this was all truly a waste of time and effort and tears... because it has gotten us NO WHERE-

Hell, I spoke, yes emailed also but I SPOKE to Diane Dimond ((months before she suddenly got famous)) and she's supposed to be this great advocate for women, but what happened?

After accusing me in writing of the worst form of Child Abuse; I was accused of "running off to Hawaii to avoid paying child support" yeah right.... whole other story in my twisted world-

So you know me I had to correct this "person"

I e mailed her when I read this "story" and she did answer me very bitterly and claiming this was a matter of record and that- well yes, but Why not call ME and ask ME who you are using as and "EXAMPLE” in a story that had NOTHING TO DO WITH ME... before you go and splatter my name in print all over the flipping Internet. And how dare she compare a measly "judgment of $11,000" to My being owed over $100,000 and possibly a murder???

I told her to go read my blogs and e mailed her documents. Thinking, wow she did this story without this much to go on. She's going to take HR's Story and run with it.... boy was I EVER WRONG

She read my blogs said she was sorry about "my loss" but there was nothing she could do for me. She hoped we got answers soon.

So this is why I choose to just forget it. Unless there's money to be made for these people they don't really care- All she cares about is selling her book. Nancy Grace- She's a disgrace to all women with her higher than mighty attitude and I have begged that show to help. They ran the same footage over and over for months and I gave them a story and one of her producers told me it wasn't juicy enough. They only want garbage not real people needing help.

A few months ago, sometime in the spring, I was approached by a reporter in Alexandria and told I want to do your story for SWEEPS week, I was hesitant but hopeful. He asked me to wait the weekend & he'd know more on Monday after approaching his bosses with all the information I had given him. I poured my heart out to this man, who I thought was really going to try to help us. Remember, He contacted Me!

Then was told they want nothing to do with it, "it's more suited to a 48 hours type show or something that can give it ample time" & the reporter was told to "stay away from that story" Then I believe a few weeks later he was looking for another job???

Really?

All I wanted was a couple seconds of airtime to say hey Pineville/ Ball / Alexandria~~~

A girl was found dead her in her estranged father home and he owed her $90K+ in unpaid child support that she was trying to get through an attorney. She had no reason to be there, she had a job and a home in another state and no body knew he had taken her.

So the manner my daughter died we will never really know how he did it, she had 3 days worth of those drugs in her system, nobody is going to tell me he wasn't slowly poisoning my baby with a pitcher of lethal tea.

Now I am babbling and sad and miss so much.

If I had one wish it would be to turn back the clock to October night Michael had taken the very same combination of pills, I wish I had packed mine & Heather's bags and had gotten into the car and just kept driving until I got anywhere but as far away from Denver as I could and just let him die, why didn't I?

I ask myself every day since he killed Heather, WHY???

Why didn't I just let him die when I had the chance...

WHY? did he have to kill her? She loved life so much, all she wanted was a father to love her

WHY? did all these people lie over and over and over

WHY? wouldn't DHS ever help me enforce my child support orders?

WHY? did they let this happen?

WHY? Is everyone still turning their backs on her? She deserves better than this.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Our Network Online Store

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One last Chance to keep our network online and running.
Please visit the store today & PLEASE help us keep searching for answers....

JUSTICE FOR HEATHER-RENEE'
SHOP ONLINE TODAY!

Thanks again for those who have helped.



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Sunday, April 4, 2010

Another April Shower


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Happy Ostara, Easter, Spring Equinox.... However you celebrate Spring's arrival, ENJOY!


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Today is about new beginings or so they tell us.
The world over is chasing eggs, stuffing thier tiny mouths with as much chocolate and foil as it will allow. Rejoicing in the beauty of the day.
Picnics and parties, rabbits and chicks and getting easter grass sucked up in the vacume cleaner.
It all brings back memories of days gone by; The years when the kids were little and it was fun to get together and cook out, hide eggs and enjoy the kids laughter as they chased each other across the yard in search of eggs.

I remember, "Someone" letting out the cows and Heather-Renee' claiming they climbed over the fence to get out and was very convincing for a 7 year old.
 The guys hiding eggs in the tree house then forgetting them for a few weeks.... eww..
Seeing the face of a young child light up when they find a prize in the egg! Money!! 
Waking up to find the Easter Bunny had left candy & eggs all over the house and even outside!!
I have such great memories of Easters Past.

My hope for them today is to continue to have fun, enjoy these holidays they only come around once a year.  Enjoy them while they last...

And the best part?
I can wear white again!!

Happy Spring!
See, all my posts aren't doom & gloom....

Thanks again for reading this far!



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Tuesday, March 16, 2010

My March Madness


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4 long years,and 6 months later and still no answers only more questions.

More insight, more information.
Things are a little clearer to me and I am getting a better picture of how I think things went down. Those last 3 days.

Purely speculation on my part, but I think Heather had been hiding from Michael for several days and I KNOW she tried to have someone come get her on Wed. She was stuck there. Alone with no one to call. We know now she had his cell phone. I begged them then to see who she had called. I know she tried to call me.She left me a message. Did she text anyone?

I know now that, that the morning Michael found Heather's body, he took the phone OUT OF HER DEAD HAND and called backed the person who she called, demanding to know what Heather wanted when she called. THEN told the person that Heather was dead.
I don't remember seeing that tib bit of information in any police report.
The cops didn't know she had the cell phone in her hand Michael claimed he didn't touch her, just called 911.
He's trained in CPR from working at the Youth camp, why didn't he even try??? on his very own daughter!! I asked to hear the 911 call, I was told NO and then I filed a FOI with nothing to this day. I have written repeatedly over the last 4 1/2 years.

So here we are March 16, 2010 and still they have not held him acountable in her death.

 That house was littered with prescription drugs and sample bottles, how is it that no one thought this strange? or does everyone in Louisiana have a quart size bottle of percocet on thier refrigerator and wellbuterin sample bottles all over the house? All these bottles where in HIS possession and none found near Heather...

All the drugs found in her system were HIS the only thing she had that was hers was a metabolite of the anti-depressant she had just started taking a week earlier. She had NO ALCOHOL in her system not even metabolites..
Which means she had NOT been drinking as he had claimed!

WHY?? Would they still believe him after so many lies??

The one drug that caused her death is amitriptyline, did you know that 750mg of this drug will KILL YOU?? well, neither did I until now. They hand this drug out like candy to kids and it is LETHAL and by the way it is also contradicted in antihistamine use it can cause DEATH...

Heather had traces of antihistamine in her system, it was mid September, now why would she be taking allergy medicine?

My opinion but She certainly didn't take his medication on her own.

This drug is easily dissolved in water and leaves no trace behind. She had 3 days worth of metabolites in her system and greater than 5000ng per mil in her blood on toxicology.
That's enough to kill a 250lb MAN!
So how did she get such a high level of the drug when she only had access to say 30 25mg pills? and why would she have metabolites of this drug if it was all taken at one time?

I can go on and on ... but I need to stop for the day

Thanks for listening, well reading this far. One day I will have the answers I seek.

He will pay one way or another, of this I am sure. I hope his dreams are filled will her face wanting to know why and I hope he sees her around every corner and every waking moment is filled with fear that I am getting closer to the truth and he will pay dearly.

This fear is what lead him to attempt suicide with the very drugs he used on my daughter.
The only problem is I saved his sorry ass... I sat in our kitchen and listened to him choke on his own vomit and I remember the smell of death hovering over my head..

Why didn't I just sit there and wait a few more minutes longer.. 10 more just 10 more and he would have been out of our lives forever...