What's it going to take?

Wow, I didn't realize it has been so long since I updated my blog. So much has happened since I last posted.
The closer it gets to her birthday the harder the days seem to be. Heather would have been 28 years old this year. Hard to imagine. Her "little" sister is now older than she.. which is a bit unnerving at times. She would probably have a child and be married or FAMOUS as she was convinced she would be. She wanted the world to know her name. One day this will happen I am sure of it. I may lay low for a few months but don't think it's because I've given up. That is never going to happen. As long as I am breathing I will continue to seek answers and continue to flood the Internet with anything I can to make people take notice. Same day this will land into the hands of the one person who will care enough and have the right influence to help us get the justice Heather so richly deserves.
I appreciate all the new signatures on the petition & new friends on Facebook!!(* Thank you so much Jayelle!!! you my dear are an angel on earth.)

Things are brewing I can feel it. The last few months have been a whirl wind of craziness. Somethings I can share - others, well I need to be careful how much I share, mostly because I don't want to loose what little ground I may have gained.
There was an incident in the fall & Michael was arrested for "cruelty to a juvenile" of course, I called the police department in LA  to find out more. I was transferred no less than 3 times each time trying to explain my concern for Christopher's safety. I was pretty much in tears by the time I actually got the investigating  officer on the phone. He assured me they would "pull the old file" and look further into this. I told him one child is already dead & I don't want the same thing to happen to Chris. I called back many more times over the course of a month & still don't know if they really "did" anything. The officer was always conveniently out on patrol & still to this day has not called me back. I have no doubt they dismissed me yet AGAIN... I'm sure this guy thought I was a lunatic on the phone. He was supposedly "new". What?- Sure I believed him & the leprechauns too. 
So, I forwarded the news blurp I found to both The Reporter & to Diane Dimond; To let them know that he'd been arrested for abusing Christopher & that this wasn't the only time they had gone to the residence for fights between the two of them. Again I was ignored.. not a word from either of them. I know Ms. D is a busy woman with Michael Jackson's death & all.... then the whole Caylee disappearance & murder. Heather's case has just gotten over shadowed by Hurricaine Katrina, then Hurricaine Rita and so on... but our turn is coming!! I refuse to give up hope. I know there is going to be someone who can do something.

The last few weeks I can't seem to think of much else, the strangest things pop into my head. So many questions, not enough real answers. Only more questions.

So someone tell me how do you make them listen? Is it going to take another child's life before they do something? I really NEED TO KNOW -What is it going to take to make them listen? I bet they'd perk up if I just blew that bastard away.... now wouldn't they?  Of course that isn't going to happen with me 5000 miles and an ocean away if it didn't happen when Mama & I rolled up on that apartment to get Heather's dog Raven and the cat back in 2005. There was a loaded gun in the car with us. Trust me when I say, it took alot of restraint to not use that F*&$#!

I had the perfect opprotunity yet again to take him out and I didn't do it.
 Now that's twice I've let him live...

I guess it's just not in me to kill or sit back and just let someone die~~~

So it's October

So here we are already into October 2010.


Some days it feels like yesterday. Some days is feels like it's happening now
and then some days, I forget- pick up the phone call her and this recording tells me the number is incorrect.... I guess Nextel decided not to use that number any more.

Sorry I haven't updated this blog since Easter but so much other in my crazy world has happened and so little relating to this has been going on. I have hesitated to blog about all the craziness in my little world.

I did blog a bit on Butterflies in the dark... had too.

I'm just so tired, I have given so much thought and work into the Network, but i really just don't know what I am doing with it. It has so many features and this and that- Hell, never claimed to know anything about running a network. It was fine as long and they were doing most of the work- Now I need some help or away it has to go. I simply can't pay for something that I'm not utilizing nor is getting me much traffic to the Network. It's a waste of what little money I have. Social Security Disability doesn't give you much to live on so thankfully I have some who loves me that provides me with a place to stay.

Anyway, I had pretty much decided this was all truly a waste of time and effort and tears... because it has gotten us NO WHERE-

Hell, I spoke, yes emailed also but I SPOKE to Diane Dimond ((months before she suddenly got famous)) and she's supposed to be this great advocate for women, but what happened?

After accusing me in writing of the worst form of Child Abuse; I was accused of "running off to Hawaii to avoid paying child support" yeah right.... whole other story in my twisted world-

So you know me I had to correct this "person"

I e mailed her when I read this "story" and she did answer me very bitterly and claiming this was a matter of record and that- well yes, but Why not call ME and ask ME who you are using as and "EXAMPLE” in a story that had NOTHING TO DO WITH ME... before you go and splatter my name in print all over the flipping Internet. And how dare she compare a measly "judgment of $11,000" to My being owed over $100,000 and possibly a murder???

I told her to go read my blogs and e mailed her documents. Thinking, wow she did this story without this much to go on. She's going to take HR's Story and run with it.... boy was I EVER WRONG

She read my blogs said she was sorry about "my loss" but there was nothing she could do for me. She hoped we got answers soon.

So this is why I choose to just forget it. Unless there's money to be made for these people they don't really care- All she cares about is selling her book. Nancy Grace- She's a disgrace to all women with her higher than mighty attitude and I have begged that show to help. They ran the same footage over and over for months and I gave them a story and one of her producers told me it wasn't juicy enough. They only want garbage not real people needing help.

A few months ago, sometime in the spring, I was approached by a reporter in Alexandria and told I want to do your story for SWEEPS week, I was hesitant but hopeful. He asked me to wait the weekend & he'd know more on Monday after approaching his bosses with all the information I had given him. I poured my heart out to this man, who I thought was really going to try to help us. Remember, He contacted Me!

Then was told they want nothing to do with it, "it's more suited to a 48 hours type show or something that can give it ample time" & the reporter was told to "stay away from that story" Then I believe a few weeks later he was looking for another job???

Really?

All I wanted was a couple seconds of airtime to say hey Pineville/ Ball / Alexandria~~~

A girl was found dead her in her estranged father home and he owed her $90K+ in unpaid child support that she was trying to get through an attorney. She had no reason to be there, she had a job and a home in another state and no body knew he had taken her.

So the manner my daughter died we will never really know how he did it, she had 3 days worth of those drugs in her system, nobody is going to tell me he wasn't slowly poisoning my baby with a pitcher of lethal tea.

Now I am babbling and sad and miss so much.

If I had one wish it would be to turn back the clock to October night Michael had taken the very same combination of pills, I wish I had packed mine & Heather's bags and had gotten into the car and just kept driving until I got anywhere but as far away from Denver as I could and just let him die, why didn't I?

I ask myself every day since he killed Heather, WHY???

Why didn't I just let him die when I had the chance...

WHY? did he have to kill her? She loved life so much, all she wanted was a father to love her

WHY? did all these people lie over and over and over

WHY? wouldn't DHS ever help me enforce my child support orders?

WHY? did they let this happen?

WHY? Is everyone still turning their backs on her? She deserves better than this.

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Seeking an Attorney...

Sent: Saturday, April 11, 2009 11:42 AM
Subject: Seeking a attorney


This message is for Mr. Gary Koederitz,

Dear Mr. Koederitz,

Please reference my messages below to Mr. T. Wahlder and his response back to me. We seem to running into barricade after barricade with no help or assistance from anyone. I read your website and it gave me a measure of hope that perhaps you may be the one person who can help us. There was never "any news coverage" of my granddaughters death, not a word. The newspaper "The Town Talk, Alexandria, LA " agrees the entire case was not only mishandled but there are just too many issues with too many levels of authority involved that they simply cannot risk the political aftermath if they pursued any coverage now.

If the facts surrounding Heathers death and chain of events that occurred were ever to come to light, public outcry would be massive. Of course we are still in shock and in grief but more than anything we simply want honest answers. To think that one level of authority would recluse themselves due to the mishandling of lower levels time after time and then drop the case "due to lack of evidence" is not only shockingly wrong, it is a miscarriage of justice, and unfair to the victim and the family.

They say that time has a way of healing, no one can heal when justice is not served and lives are taken with no one to answer or stand accountable. Michael David Skarina was instrumental in his involvement of the death of his natural daughter and the authorities in LA have allowed this to happen. We need your help desperately. Please take the time to google Heather Renee Skarina, Michael David Skarina and Leyona Goldman (Heathers mother-my daughter). You will be astounded at what you read.

I so appreciate you taking the time to read this and look forward to your response. Please copy my daughter (leyona@gmail.com) with your response.

Thank you in advance for helping us.

Carol Goldman


Sent: Thursday, April 16, 2009 11:56 AM
To: Gary P. Koederitz
Cc: Leyona Goldman
Subject: Seeking a attorney
Importance: High


Please would someone forward this email to Mr. Koederitz for me and acknowledge receipt of this so I know he did receive it. I would so appreciate your thoughtfulness in doing this for me. I also erred in my message and said we were looking for a "Pro Bono attorney" we are not, we are seeking a "contingency attorney". I believe I have stated that correctly this time.

Thank you in advance for responding back to me.
Carol Goldman
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Sent: Thursday, April 16, 2009 11:02 AM
Subject: RE: Seeking a attorney


Carol: I am sorry for your loss, and I am sorry that I cannot assist you with the case. You might want to obtain phone numbers of the local bar associations for Shreveport, Lafayette, Baton Rouge, New Orleans, etc. and try them. Many such organizations, including Baton Rouge, maintain a referral service listing attorneys interested in certain types of cases. I wish you luck with everything.

Gary P. Koederitz
Koederitz Law Firm, LLC
8702 Jefferson, Suite A
Baton Rouge, LA 70809
Tel. 225-928-9111
Fax 225-926-7117
gary@kwlawbr.com

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Mr. Koederitz,

Truthfully, I had to walk away from the computer when I read your response to me. I simply could not believe my eyes were reading the words you had written. For you to dismiss me by telling me to get a phone book is unbelievable. You then reference that Baton Rouge maintains a referral service listing attorneys who might be interested. Finally you close "wishing me luck". To say I was rendered speechless is to put it mildly.

Did you even take the time to read Mr. Wahlders response and suggestion to me below. If you had you would have saw where her suggested I contact the "The Louisiana Association for Justice" for help. I immediately googled their site and within a few strokes of the keyboard I find you.

Your resume is extensive and impressive. Member of the Baton Rouge Bar Association, "Louisiana Association for Justice", American Association for Justice, and served on the Board of Governors of the Louisiana Association for Justice for several years, to list just a few of your numerous attributes.

Now exactly what are you telling me, "you simply have no suggestions nor can offer any assistance". How can that possibly be? Exactly what is the LA. Assoc for Justice doing? Or for that matter Am Assoc. for Justice? Do they just have a fancy title and get funded mega bucks for office space and clerical assistance to do nothing? I'm just a simple person with a simple education and yet I know when something smells to high heaven and isn't right. These agencies hawk their willingness to provide assistance and help you find justice, but when you reach out to them they slam doors in your face or dismiss you with insincere words of sympathy and send you away.

The exact agencies I was referred to, you are a highly respected member of. Why would you dismiss me so frivolously and with no substantial reason nor any effort what so ever to provide assistance? Surely you are not that callous and uncaring a person. You possess the ability and have the connections and means to help us, why won't you. Even though you do not personally know me, the case alone should perk the spark in you that demands such wrongs be made right. Isn't that what all your oaths make reference to?

I'm begging you to reconsider and help us. We have been steadfast in our quest to seek help in finding answers, hold accountable those who either hindered or covered up facts as well as those who contributed to the death of our beloved granddaughter (and daughter). So many simply are not willing to face the hurdles (political or career) and help us. It isn't because there is no case, it's due to fear, repercussions, heat from where ever, in short the pot is boiling and no one wants to go near it. That doesn't make it right, Mr. Koederitz, it makes it tragic (for us). Because now not only is our Heather a victim but we have become victims as well.

I anxiously awaiting hearing back from you, one way or the other. I need to know you did receive this message.

Thank you for listening and responding.
Carol Goldman

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Mr. Koederitz,

I realize you are a busy man. I have however patiently been waiting for a reply from you. It has been ten (10 days) since you received my email below. Would you please respond back to me. I am very confused that you offer me no assistance nor definite direction for seeking assistance. Every association you are a member of "professes to be one that reaches out to help those in need of legal assistance". Yet, you dismiss me with no reason given nor provide me with information as to who can assist me.

I realize you do not have to personally help us. But, I do not believe I am overstepping in my continued request for you to provide us with accurate information on who we can contact to help us. Please respond to my request below. I appreciate you taking the time to do this for us.

Carol Goldman
cc: Leyona Goldman

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Sent: Monday, April 27, 2009 12:58 PM
Subject: RE: Request and response


I do not wish to represent you, and I am sorry but I have no further suggestions.

Gary P. Koederitz
Koederitz Law Firm, LLC
8702 Jefferson, Suite A
Baton Rouge, LA 70809
Tel. 225-928-9111
Fax 225-926-7117
gary@kwlawbr.com
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Rules for conduct?

Today I have a few e mails to share, this is my response to several e mails from this man to my mother.
We are still attempting to get an attorney to help us and can find no one. Even Gloria Alred turned me down. Well, at least one of her junior attorneys did. It was a shot in the dark... ok? I'm not ruling anyone out just yet.

I will not give up the hope that we will find someone willing to take on the slimeball political family in Rapides Parish, La
How can someone be so rude? He's supposed to help those who can't help themself... I think he needs to find a new job personally, but then again he is why attorneys have such a bad reputation.
After reading his emails to my mother I was so upset I looked for this man & found this "creed" belonging to the group he is a member of... seems he forgot his "oath" so I reminded him.....





Louisiana Association for Justice Lawyer's Creed

I. I revere the Law, the Civil Justice System, and the profession, and I pledge that in my private and professional life, and in my dealings with fellow members of the Bar, I will uphold the dignity and respect of each in my behavior toward others.

II. In all dealings with fellow members of the Bar, I will be guided by a fundamental sense of integrity and fair play; I know that effective advocacy does not mean hitting below the belt.

III. I will not abuse the Civil Justice System or the Profession by pursuing or opposing discovery through arbitrariness or for the purpose of harassment or undue delay.

IV. I will not seek accommodation from a fellow member of the Bar for the rescheduling of any Court setting or discovery unless a legitimate need exists. I will not misrepresent conflicts, nor will I ask for accommodation for the purpose of tactical advantage or undue delay.

V. In my dealings with the Court and my fellow counsel, as well as others, my word is my bond.

VI. I will readily stipulate the undisputed facts to avoid needless cost and inconvenience to any party and will work with opposing counsel to reduce the expense of litigation.

VII. I recognize that my conduct is not governed solely by the Rules of Professional Conduct, but also by standards of fundamental decency and courtesy.

VIII. I will strive to be punctual in communications with others and in honoring scheduled appearances, and I will recognize that neglect and tardiness are demeaning to me and to the Profession.

IX. If a fellow member of the Bar makes a just request for cooperation, or seeks scheduling accommodation, I will not arbitrarily or unreasonably withhold consent.

X. I recognize that effective advocacy does not require antagonistic or obnoxious behavior, and as a member of the Bar, I pledge to adhere to the higher standard of conduct which we, our clients, and the public may rightfully expect.


Seems to me, Mr Koederitz that you have forgotten these.. ...


You are the most rude an obnoxious person I have had the displeasure of being in contact with.

I hope you never have a child be ripped from your life and treated with such disrespect.
My mother reached out to you and you basically blow her off without so much as
"sorry for your loss" My guess is you didn't read anything pertaining to this case.
Or
You are also involved in some way.... could that be the reason for your harshness and
disregard for my mothers feelings or is it that lawyers such as yourself just want all the "glory" of having a trail of groups you are a member of to make yourself look far more important than you are?

You should clearly rethink your membership in a group that you pledge to conduct yourself in a certain manner then do the complete opposite.

Shame on you and may you never experience the heartbreak and frustration we have.

I look forward to posting your e mails on my blog for everyone to see and read, hopefully it will trickle down to your clients.. if you have any; considering your rudeness and lack of compassion.

One day we will be heard and it will be national news and your name will be on the list right under the Alexandria Town Talk and every other person in La that has stood in my way to the truth behind my daughters MURDER. Yes she was murdered in your state by a sheriffs deputy and covered up by the police and DA... my daughter begged on MORE THAN ONE OCCASION to be away from that man...and did the police help her?! NO!!.. he drove her to die.. in a police car and left her crying... LESS than 24 hours later she was DEAD....with no formal "time of death" They are responsible for her death and It will come to light with or without your help.

It's a shame you have no desire to help us, but I know there is someone out there that will.

THERE WILL BE JUSTICE FOR HEATHER-RENEE' SKARINA

Heather deserved better than this and If it is the last thing I do I will not have what happened to her happen to any other child whose father refuses to pay support and goes to such great lengths as tax evasion, skipping about the country and eventually even murder to avoid supporting his child. LA helped him every step of the way.... for 25 years they stood in my way and still are to this day.

This has to end, someone must listen. Is Louisiana corruption so ramped that no one has any morals anymore? Is there not a decent lawyer in the state?
I'll find someone, without your help.

I do not wish for you to represent us in anyway and keep your suggestions to contact the bar...
in 3 years you honestly think we haven't contacted the BAR???
You obviously did not read the original email. I can only hope you've read thus far.

Thank you for you time, you obviously feel it is more important than other peoples time.
Sorry to inform you but my time is just as valuable; even if I don't charge by the minute.

You were a waste of Mother's time, I'm sorry she contacted you in the first place, but what do you expect when you contact those who are SUPPOSED TO HELP YOU?
certainly not this, but live and learn.

Thank you for not helping,

Leyona Goldman
Mother of the Late Heather-Renee' Skarina
who was murdered in Louisiana by cooperative efforts of the city of BALL, Rapides Parish Sheriff's office and the DA along with Michael D Skarina on September 18, 2005

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Now this is my last email to FACEBOOK:

HI ELI!

I set this page up 3 years ago she had been dead over a year and there were 1000's of other dead kids with pages too. There was no violation of "terms of service"
AGAIN at that time there were NO GROUPS>>>>
When that became option I then DID create a GROUP!
Justice for Heather-Renee'
then along came fan pages.. and Causes!

I did everything right, in order in which I was able!


So your TERMS OF SERVICE at the TIME THE PAGE WAS CREATED said nothing about this..
I was never IMPERSONATING ANYONE

so again.. the page was a way for me to connect with her friends that were unable to be notified of HER DEATH! and the STRUGGLE That we are going through. It has taken me 3 years now to finally start finding some of these very people and you do this

My mother, Carol Goldman, has sent you a release stating that I am able to DO THIS. If NEED BE I CAN AND WILL GET A COURT ORDER!

Those photos on that page belong to ME and the estate
I need be able to get into the account and be IN CONTROL OF THIS ACCOUNT
WHY AGAIN DO YOU HAVE CONTROL and I DO NOT?

This makes absolutely NO sense.

I have the password and the e mail I want back into this account in order to remove some things that YOU HAVE NO CONTROL OVER!
YOU ARE VIOLATING MY RIGHTS and the rights of COPYRIGHTED MATERIAL THAT IS MINE AND I HAVE COMPLETE CONTROL OVER. LET ME BACK INTO THIS ACCOUNT

I want to SPEAK TO SOMEONE
808-XXX-XXXX
or provide me with a phone number in which to speak to someone of AUTHORITY

Leyona Goldman
natural MOTHER of Heather-Renee' Skarina

Any and all text and photographs included are © Copyright 2000-2005, 2005-2008 Estate of Heather-Renee' Skarina and next of kin or the respective photographers photographs, They may not be legally reproduced without prior written permission. The text and photos are not in the public domain and are not freeware.This message should be considered confidential and is intended for the recipient only. If received in error, please advise by return email.




NOW THIS IS WHAT HE WROTE ME BACK:

I WANT TO SCREAM!!!

Hi Leyona,

We understand your issue and are sorry for the inconvenience it has caused. However, the account in question was not created by Heather-Renee. Out Terms of Use do not allow users to impersonate other individuals, regardless of the circumstance. We understand that this is a very difficult situation but unfortunately we will not be able to provide you access to this account. We strongly recommend that you set up a group in memory of your daughter. If you would like assistance with creating a group, please let me know. Again, we apologize for any inconvenience this issue has caused.

Thanks,


Eli
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I just want to cry, How can he have read my email and answered it in this manner? I don't understand why they will just continue to add people to her page but not let me have control over who is her friend now?

WHO AGAIN ARE THEY PROTECTING? I am the only one who had access to begin with, no one else.

I am adding as many of her friends and moving them all to the Group pages as i can. If I can... they will only let me move a 100 a day and it's time consuming she has over 500 friends now..

This is so wrong...

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